I will never forget this day. Thur, Aug 7, 2008. 

I was coming home after buying some stuff for pasta. It was raining super heavily that even an umbrella cant save u. 

I got off the bus and i saw this old guy, he had no umbrella, and does seem to need to cross the road to get somewhere (going to the road means facing the rain). I tot of offering him my umbrella, but i tot to myself, maybe hes waiting for someone. I stood at the bus stop for a while wondering if i shuld ask him the qn. ('DO U NEED AN UMBRELLA?') But i jus went on home. In my head thinking, the umbrella is too small anyway for both of us. . . 

I reached the lift and something jus gripped me. My mind says, 'Sylvester, what are u tinking? Go back and gain some credit for urself, help the old guy. Get credit! Then ur heart can be filled wif contentment of how great u are Sly!' 
Indeed i tot that way. That tis was an opportune time to gain some credit for myself. But God intervened. . 

'Sly, what is the right thing to do?' Then i said, 'ok God no matter hw i feel, i wana do the right thing anyway.' That was the start of things to come. I made the decision to go back to the bus stop . .

I went to my home and grabbed another umbrella. Then made my way to the bus stop. Still braving the heavy rain. I checked to see if the old guy was gone at the road intersection, hes still there! 

I walked quite slowly behind tis guy, wondering if he was the old man's son or something. But he is not. The old guy stood there wif a handphone in his hand, maybe toking to someone to bring an umbrella down or something. He was speaking in some dialect & i got abit scared on whether he will understand english. But i just asked him ' Excuse me, do u nid an umbrella?' 

He hung up hs phone to whoever he's toking to and his first qn was, 'are u from that church' (pointing to the methodist church opposite my huse) 

I said 'No' 

Old guy 'Why not?' 

I said 'Because i am already a christian' 

Old guy 'why dun u come to this church?' 

I laughed haha. Cus i am tinking, of cus i wont change church! 

I replied 'i am sure of where i am right now' 

Old guy 'maybe u shuld come and see, we got youth programs too' 

The convo went on awhile, the guy seemingly tryin to 'convert' me to that church. 

But eventually it got to a point where the convo got abit personal:

Old guy 'i work at the church' 

Old guy 'i am so old yet i have to work, i want to retire but i cant. 

I replied 'dosent anyone support u?'

Old guy 'My son is an engineer, my daughter got her own family, no one gives me money. Not even a cent. I never eat at home. . no one cook for me. . i wash my clothes (points to his clothes). . this clothes i wash myself. 3 meals, breakfast, lunch, dinner i eat outside. No one cook for me.' 

Old guy 'i am not lying, me and my wife, we raise our son to university in australia, hes an engineer now, but cant even support himself. How to give me money? I want to retire, but how to?' 

Old guy 'anw thanks for the umbrella. Is this God's will or a coincidence? What do u tink?' 

I replied 'God spoke to me, to bring u tis umbrella' 

Old guy 'well thank you. Tis is what i call a true christian. All the other passerby jus walk pass.' 
(anw compliments or not does not really matter. Wad God tinks matter most. But i am sure God spoke to me and send me there) 

Old guy 'well no matter what church, there is only 1 God. . . 

Old guy 'honestly i really duno whether to laugh or to cry when i look at my life. Is God fair to me anot? I so old still have to work' 

I replied 'Life is never fair, but God is just' 

Old guy 'if he's just why do i still have to work?' 

Old guy 'honestly i have given up hope. Honestly.. . I used to come from a methodist school. I wore the cross, i said the Lord's prayer, i said grace before eating. But i dun do that now.' 

I asked 'Why not' 

Old guy 'I lost hope.' 

The convo went on for quite awhile. But he was telling me that his job there was MISERABLE. Miserable he says. That he is really lonely there. But he says he is contemplating some things with God. The rain softened and he kept thanking me. We then walked to the church and he told me a few more things. 1 being that some people are trying to beat him up cus they are not happy wif him. 

I asked if he needed any help in the set up, for his job. Maybe move some tables or something but he says the cleaner will do it. We bid farewell and he asked for my name. (so did i) 

One thing he said really struck me quite abit wen we left. 

Old guy 'well thanks for hearing anther sad story' 

I was lost for words. . 

I went home, i DID NOT cry or felt a powerful PASSION to go plant churches and proclaim THE CHURCH IS THE HOPE OF THE WORLD! 

I prayed for his safety, that those people who are planning to beat him will fail & God will protect him. And he really needed the truth of God. I duno how or wad to say, but i knw i gota do something. 

My mind drifted abit and i wondered wad happens if he died a miserable man. Having never got the answer why God put him through all this. But i also tink, if i go and make a difference, even if he dies, he is at rest in God's hands. 

Oh God. . what do u wan me to do. Hes still at the church now at tis time. Working till the next morning. He works night shift. . An old man people. Think about it. All alone looking after the church building.

Today many things happened as i read God's word. And though got no school today (as school is the time when i meet people and interact wif them) things happened. I prayed in the morning, lemme put on ur lenses oh God


Things Learnt:

Col 2:8--> See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the basic principles of this world rather than on Christ. 
(Only God's word shall we stand!) 

The following are some verses which u can refer to from Job. 

Job 1:21, 5:17, 13:15, 14:14, 16:21, 19:23-27, 23:10, 26:7-14, 28:12-28, 42:1-6. 

Job 42:3-6--> 
 3 You asked, 'Who is this that obscures my counsel without knowledge?'
       Surely I spoke of things I did not understand,
       things too wonderful for me to know.

 4 "You said, 'Listen now, and I will speak;
       I will question you,
       and you shall answer me.'

 5 My ears had heard of you 
       but now my eyes have seen you.

 6 Therefore I despise myself
       and repent in dust and ashes."

(The only place to learn God's lessons is on your face, wif ur mouth shut!)

Isa 6:1-5-->

Isaiah's Commission

 1 In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw the Lord seated on a throne, high and exalted, and the train of his robe filled the temple. 2 Above him were seraphs, each with six wings: With two wings they covered their faces, with two they covered their feet, and with two they were flying. 3 And they were calling to one another:
       "Holy, holy, holy is the LORD Almighty;
       the whole earth is full of his glory."

 4 At the sound of their voices the doorposts and thresholds shook and the temple was filled with smoke.

 5 "Woe to me!" I cried. "I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the LORD Almighty." 

(The godly are allowed to suffer that they may see themselves, we are not tat 'good' afterall) 

--> Many know God as a creator and believe in His greatness, but they do not really know God. The more we understand His ways the more we will love Him and put our trust in Him. Job found God in His troubles. 

Things which happened: 

1) I got chilli padi juice in my eyes today. Dam pain! Cus i tot i removed the essence of chilli padi from my hands, then rubed my eyes. I begged God to heal me, heal me, heal me. It felt abit better, then went to bathe cus soap got alkaline. Its at tis point wher i spend time wif God as well. =] My eyes was super red (the white part was red), but it was totally healed after bathing and praying.

2) I thought i had loved today, but God showed me something more. 

Love for Enemies

But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? -Matthew 5:44-47 

(Btw the reward here is does NOT mean love ur enemies and be rewared wif gifts, but rather u will be rewarded wif knowing wad real love is. Anyone can love some1 who is lovable, but if u really love ur enemies, u really have God's love in u) 

Wen His word came, i know that i am not that 'good' afterall. I thought i had loved until i read that i gota love my enemies and pray for those who persecute me also. 

1 Cor 15: 

(V19)--> If only for this life we have hope in Christ, we are to be pitied more than all men.
(Christianity is not a passing thing or a fad, it last till eternity) 

V34--> Come back to your senses as you ought 
(It is an action to come back, it takes delibrate effort)

V34--> stop sinning; for there are some who are ignorant of God—I say this to your shame. 
(Christianity is a pro-active faith. We chose to sin or be led by the spirit) 

V35-36--> Some skeptic is sure to ask, "Show me how resurrection works. Give me a diagram; draw me a picture. What does this 'resurrection body' look like?" If you look at this question closely, you realize how absurd it is. There are no diagrams for this kind of thing. We do have a parallel experience in gardening. You plant a "dead" seed; soon there is a flourishing plant. There is no visual likeness between seed and plant. You could never guess what a tomato would look like by looking at a tomato seed. What we plant in the soil and what grows out of it don't look anything alike. The dead body that we bury in the ground and the resurrection body that comes from it will be dramatically different.  
(MSG version for better understanding.) 

Job 1:7--> The LORD said to Satan, "Where have you come from?"
      Satan answered the LORD, "From roaming through the earth and going back and forth in it."
(There is an endless restlessness of evil. )

BUT

1 Peter 5:8-9--->  Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings. 
(resist the devil is NOT resist sin. We are called to flee from sin but resist the devil with God's word) 
(u can nv lead a godly life w/o Satan coming in to walk wif you, to find fault wif u, to vex u) 

Rom 8:28-->  And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. 
(There is a reason and value to everything God allows. Though we do nt always understand what God is working out on the battlegrounds of our hearts) 

Here is a breakdown of the verses i read from the book 'What the bible is all about' 
Its from the part about understanding the book of Job. 
In Job, God gives the answer. Why does righteous people still suffer? 
I nid to read more then can blog haha. 

• Not to have drama written in my life but to have character written in my heart.

• Heb 12:1-2:
• 'throw off' things that hinders and sin which entangles us so easily
• 'Run' with perseverance
• race marked out for us (planned for us)
• 'Fix' our eyes on Jesus (our focus to be on Jesus)
• 'Joy' set before Him endured the cross. Jesus see the value of enduring the cross. To bring salvation
• Jesus is honored by God

• Rom 7:
  
• The law is not sin (v7)
• But because of sin in men it caused men to die
• did law become death to men? no it is there so we know how sinful we actually are
• the good i wana do i do not do. The evil i dun wana do i keep doing. (because sin living in me does it)
• Wen i wana do good, evil is right there wif me! (i delight in God's law but sin wages war in me!)
• Jesus condemn sin in sinful men. (He did not condemn men)
• If u are led by spirit of God, u are a son of God.

Thank God for: 
Helping me understand Rom 7. 

Romans 7:24-25 (The Message):

 I've tried everything and nothing helps. I'm at the end of my rope. Is there no one who can do anything for me? Isn't that the real question? 

The answer, thank God, is that Jesus Christ can and does. He acted to set things right in this life of contradictions where I want to serve God with all my heart and mind, but am pulled by the influence of sin to do something totally different. 

I gained 1.5kg!

53-54.5

omg too much food. .

(2 Tim 3:10-17)

• Paul leant/read scriptures and had faith (confidence) that God will deliver him from persecutions (v11) (v15b) 

• So wen 1 knows scriptures, he is able to continue in salvation 

• Scriptures is God given (v16) 

• we need to be equipped (equipped like a sword, Eph 6:17) with God's word so we can do God's work (will) v17

• Nth of great value is ever accomplished w/o consistent effort invested on our part

• there is no royal road to the knowledge of the bible

• Intention is needed for attention. My Intention= knw God, keep coontinued awareness of God (in range of His word) & knw hw to live life

• Believe that every book is something and read and re-read until you find out what that something is

• Believe and understand, know and love (wisdom), and follow HIM! 

 To do now: 1hr of qt a day. Gen, Job, Matt.

I write everything here except QT learnings lol.

Thanks to Jeremy for his thumb-drive so i can have Microsoft office restored.

Thanks to Newell for sharing wif me at Mensa and jus nw before svc started.

Thanks to SQ for always asking 'are u ok?'

Thanks to Joyce for ur pat and little convo on the way to PS. At tat point i doubted ur sincerity, i am sorry.

Thanks to Jen for still praying for us. I know that i know tat u are always doin so.

Thanks to ZW for sharing on bus 372. Truth--Faith--Feeling.

Thanks to Ced, for nv quitting on me.

Thanks to God who asked me to release my clenched fist into surrendered hands.

Thanks to all the saints. The hope of the world.


My enemies are glad.
They are happy i am falling.
They are happier i am joining them in their seat of assembly.
Ever tot wad happened if u went to hell?

Proverbs 2

Moral Benefits of Wisdom

 1 My son, if you accept my words
       and store up my commands within you,

 2 turning your ear to wisdom
       and applying your heart to understanding,

 3 and if you call out for insight
       and cry aloud for understanding,

 4 and if you look for it as for silver
       and search for it as for hidden treasure,

 5 then you will understand the fear of the LORD
       and find the knowledge of God.  

- integrity and punctuality required for SIP. omg i suck at these 2. . God....

- I lack wisdom tats y hv to read tat book.. God...

- wen can i settle to tink thru my life. . God..

- i wana fear the lord nt because its cool in people's eye, but in God's eye. God...

- In the God head figure, He is always the last in terms of praise and the first in terms of blame. (tis is the typical way of viewing God, creator, saviour).. God..

- jus wen u tot i was quitting

- because i am removed frm ldrship position

- Because my ex-sheeps are scattered except 1

- Because its getting dry season nw

- Because i am jealous and love some praises

- Dosent mean i am quitting

- dosent mean i will look to u and tremble

- dosent mean i dun hv bros who pray for me and one another

- dosent mean God didnt create heavens and earth

- dosent mean Jesus is fake

- Dosent mean he did not die and rose again 3 days later, ultimate sacrifice for men's sins

- critics will always change

- u who look to tis and tink it is written to make one feel better

- but u who failed to realise tis is the truth nt set by men but God

- u who turned ur back and shout God changed

- nt knowing he is seeking repentant hearts

- hw long more? hw long more will u reject him as lord and saviour.. . .

- Our F&B Ops group 'Dining Back Home' is 1st again in terms of cumulative profits =] 2 times in a row, alrite man!

- Watched movie Pirates- Dead man's chest in school wif benj and newell. forgot to take SQ shoe bag at first, cus hand carring too many things, then remembered and go back take haha. Lets look out for one another's life and belongings too yeah?

- played bball wif dan, xavier, sq, zy, dennis, lester (welcome back), gerald (though u nv play) some frends and the girls on fri. it was much fun, everyone also got score haha.

- Sat svc which was 6 hrs ago, thanks SQ & the guys for praying for me. tat my SIP can be lenion to me and allow my sat's to be free for service. =]

- celebrate ZW and XT Bday abit. Awesome choc cake and nice hand made presents =]

tats abt it for tis week highlights. yeap thank God for job, for projects, for bros and sis, for frends, for leaders.

The God figure is always last in terms of praise & always 1st in terms of blame. 

Thank u God for putting tis into me. 

Tml gona try something wild at work wif Melvin =] 

Do somehing which we nv done B4 haah. lets see wad happens. 

No such thing as want blessing and not obey, want good results and bot deligent. Follow God fully (narrow path) or follow devil fully (wide path). 

Yea. 3 things i discovered today wen i prayed. Need:


i) diligence
ii) Disciplined
iii) humble 

Turn them opposite. Tats who i am nw. Narrow path! 

Today did project wif Guan Zuo. Spent about 3 hrs doing a 12 marks question. We laid out all the necessary notes on computer table. Like some pro analyst. haha. pretty fun. And we met the deadline of 1159pm! =] Yeah gd job bro. 

Ok time to be diligent. Accounting!

Incredible sermon by Pastor Micheal. 

Was praying seriously today and God reminded me in the morning not to keep arms length relationship wif God. Tears and pain then come to God. I am being reminded time aft time abt tis. No matter hw long in church or hw busy. Mus spend time wif God! 


God also reminded me at night. In fact a revelation. Phil 2:7 

'but made himself nothing,
      taking the very nature of a servant,
      being made in human likeness.'  

Jesus came and interact wif men. Sinful men. A holy wif the unholy. Imagine u are nicely bathed and fresh, wuld u hug a person who is sweaty and smell? 
A little away from home, wuld u hug african kids? Embrace or feed them? Nt sterotype them as diseased people? 
We all tok about world peace, feed the world, but who is the one who dares take up the responsibility? 
I knw i wont. 

But Jesus did jus tat. As a servant He healed the sick (people wif Leprosy, blind, lame) and He loved interacting wif sinful men. 

It struck me at tis point, who am i to say 'sinful men are treating me tis and that way'. In fact i ought to pray for them and myself. I am a sinner myself who needs God's forgiveness continually, who needs His love & to love. 

Love for Enemies (Matthew 5:42-47)

 "You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.' 44But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? 47And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? 


Application: a) spend time praying DAILY
b) fresh encounter wif HS 
c) pray i can love un-lovable

God showed me today. Make disciples, nt converts. 

To be honest, i feel sometimes we shower alot of love, care, concern, hospitality, gentleness, sacrifice for non-b. But wen they are converted, it seems they are chuck aside. The love, care, concern etc seems to cease. I qn, where is relationship? 

It seems like church people do tis so as to gain credit,  to gain quick acknowledgement for the numbers they manage to convince over to christianity. That christians are in this jus for credits, they dun really care wad happens aft tat. 

Tats hw i felt. I feel like B4 u convert u are showered wif love, fellowship, sacrificial giving from others. But wen u come into the family, u gradually feel like the love and fellowship aint there as it used to. Also, ur ldrs are really lovin to the non-b, compared to their love shown for u, u feel in lack. 

In a nutshell:
Do u feel ldrs only care about converting people and nt building relationship wif people? 

Do hv thoughts like 'hey wad bout me?' 

Do u hv thoughts tat ur shepherds only care about hw well u do ur task, and not hw u are doing? 

Do u hv thoughts that they are superficial people? Fake? 

Do u feel they are making believers and not belongers? 

Do u feel lonely at times wen people are all hyped abt serving while u are still being restored, and u feel no one cares abt ur restoration process?

Do u hv negative thoughts that ur leaders dislike u? Dun trust u? 

Do u feel like u cannot seem to trust ur leader/shepherd anymore? Cus u are afraid hw they are gona see u? A failure? 

Do u have the feeling tat u keep failing & people arnd u are sick of it? 

Do u feel God dosent care anymore? 

Do u feel like God is using the life of David and Saul on u? (Saul rejected God and God rejected him as king.) Like u are rejected and replaced, seemingly nv to be able to serve again. 

Do u feel cursed and condemned because of the multitude of things u done.. wrong? 

=]

To be honest, i felt all that, thought all tat. God is and still is restoring me: 

He is God, above all. Serve an audience of one! 

He still loves u, He wans to work through u! 

He wans His love to ovrflow from u to others! 

He wans to build u up not tear u down! 

He wans to remind u that condemnation draws u away from Him, conviction draws u nearer to Him! 

He wans us to rmb tat sin seperates us from Him, but He wans us to repent, turning back to Him & truth is we can! 

His grace is sufficient in ur weakness. 

He may discipline u, but He is treating u as His own son! Peace and righteousness to those who hv been trained by it. Heb 12. 

He wans u to knw.. wad is love. 

He is a God who shows no favouritism. Rise up to the calling, or He will rise others up who will follow His calling. 

He is all ready to bless u, do u really want it? Submitting ur life, every action, every decision 100% at the foot of the corss saying 'Use me oh God!' 

He placed His leaders ovr u without mistake. Men may lack qualities but wif God u will nv be in lack. 

He wans u to learn to submit to authority. tats a church the devil fears. 

He wans u to lay dwn ur pride. Dun be like Lucifer who tot he can be greater than God. 

He wans u to humbly seek him, everyday! Nt jus in sickness or weakness. 

He will nv leave nor forsake u is nt an obsolete truth. It is the very promise of God! 

He loves us all! 

Hypocritical? Relationally we must grow together & learn to love more and more, but as for u, dun let ur attitude be one who seeks selfish ambition and vain conceit. Who only says 'feed me!'

=D 

These are what God told/showed me. And He still is. Hes a living God. He led me to knw wad it meant by being thrown outside where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth. Fear Him for it is the beginning of wisdom.

 


We had CG outing 11 July 2008, Friday. =D 
Though abit poor svc at the restaurant but we had fun. haha 

Went aft that to tis Fillipino Restaurat for desserts which every1 of the guys describes as O******, Delicious! Heeh. 

Chocolate lava, chocolate oozing out of the warm cake and topped off with vanilla ice cream and chocolate sauce. woo.. Thanks for recommendation, Daniel. 

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Thanksgiving: 

To Cedric: thanks fot the late night phone calls till 4am. i am sorry but i cant accept the presentatin which u did for me. I cant sacrifice something which costs me nothing. Though doing work is not a sacrifice in itself, but gota sacrifice sleep, games, online TV. Its my load to carry, tis will only train my back to be stronger. I mus receive tis training from God. I can take ur ideas but nt ur work and stamp my name on it bro. 

Everything happened for a reason. Though tragically the file got replaced with the old one by accident, but hw we respond is no accident. 

To Joycelyn: O shepherd, O leader, though always take 1hr B4 i can eventually open up in conversation to u, but thank you for ur patience and prayers for us all. Though i can say i always do wrong things and kena scolded, but no matter wad its serving the Lord. 

To Jen: Thank God for giving us Divine Authority lessons. A powerful church is one where divine order flows correctly. Submissive-ness and humility, gentleness, kindness, compassion, patience towrads one another. Until we reach unity in the knowledge of the Lord Jesus. 

To God: Thank you for Eph 4 and constantally reminding me wif ur word abt weakness, abt humility etc. I always let u dwn and behave like a boy, but i knw u nv give up on me. None like u Lord, none like you who loves a sinner like me. God dying to myself is tough.. 

To ZY: Thanks for rising to God's calling, to lead the grp though nt CL. To focus on the comission and not the food. To hear my complains about resumes and horrible restaurant service haha. 

To Benj: Unweakening faith, unweavering, unworldly!

To Dennis: Potential beatboxer man. Hope one day can use it for God's glory. And mimick various singers, super funny haah.

To Newell: Thanks for ur openess and sharings. 

To SQ: Though outwardly dun look like christian but omg ur consistency is something which puzzled me for super long. Hw can any1 be so consistent!? Wif God all things are possible la haha. Thanks for ur cares and concerns and prayers for the sick and weak. 

Thanks, thanks, thanks.

Breakthrough #1: Study accounting 8, 9 

Breakthrough #2: Study for LSO 

Breakthrough #3: Go all classes for 1 whole week, boring or not 

Breakthrough #4: Do QT whether feeling there or not!

Haggai 1  !!!

The ship which nv experienced wear and tear 
Which is docked safely at the habour 
Its been awhile since it left 
Its a beautiful ship 

Nv has it seen choppy waters 
Nor sailed beyond where it knows 
Food and supplies all well stocked 
But the essentials it does not have
It does not have faith 
Nor love
Nor diligence 
Nor perseverance 
Nor strength
It remains a beautiful ship 

It has never seen breakthroughs 
Never once 
It has lost its will to sail 
The will to function its purpose 
The will to set forth and do as the captain commands 

It grows tired of the captain 
The captain loves His ship 
For which captain dosent! 
The ship has forgetten its captain 
It has hardened its heart against him 

All other ships are gearing up 
Some up and running 
Gaining speed as they go 
their captain delights in them 
And they delight for they hv a purpose 

They hv meaning 
they are focused only on wad is ahead 
they conquer new lands 
brave the high winds and 7 seas 
they wear and tear alot 
but inwardly they are renewed day by day 
by the captain who so loved them 

The beautiful ship finally realises one day
Life without purpose, is meaningless 
It is afraid 
so afraid 
that wen the time comes 
it will be debarred 
it will be left outside 
where there will be weeping 

It tries to set sail once 
but was too afraid 
twice 
but was too lazy 

till nw it still remains 
with weak engines 
unable to propel it forward 

he knws at his groan and cry 
the captain will renew him again! 
but he the waves scares him 
the laziness built up speaks a different word 

he desires nt help from the captain 
he is double minded 
wanting safety and wanting to grow 
wanting diligence but wanting comfort 

the ship has a new day today 
to sail to not so choppy waters for a start 

remember O ship 
hw u hv cried for help not to be forgotten 
hw u hv teared and experienced loneiness 
hw u wanted to hear 
'Well done my good and faithful servant!'

Psalm 119:9-16 (New International Version)

 9 How can a young man keep his way pure?
       By living according to your word.

 10 I seek you with all my heart;
       do not let me stray from your commands.

 11 I have hidden your word in my heart
       that I might not sin against you.

 12 Praise be to you, O LORD;
       teach me your decrees.

 13 With my lips I recount
       all the laws that come from your mouth.

 14 I rejoice in following your statutes
       as one rejoices in great riches.

 15 I meditate on your precepts
       and consider your ways.

 16 I delight in your decrees;
       I will not neglect your word.

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Always getting excited wen reading your word 
Always wana be the first one to flip to that page 
Does God delight in such things? 

Always getting excited to preach ur word 
The revelation u showed me 
Does God delight in head knowledge? 

Always reading but hardly receiving 
In my heart the words get choked 
By thorns and thistles 

By living according to ur word 
a young man keeps his ways pure 
I need the hiding of ur word in my heart 
tat i might not sin against u

The passage being read: 

Isaiah 53 (MSG)

 1 Who believes what we've heard and seen? Who would have thought God's saving power would look like this?

 2-6The servant grew up before God—a scrawny seedling,
   a scrubby plant in a parched field.

There was nothing attractive about him,
   nothing to cause us to take a second look.

He was looked down on and passed over,
   a man who suffered, who knew pain firsthand.

One look at him and people turned away.
   We looked down on him, thought he was scum.

But the fact is, it was our pains he carried—
   our disfigurements, all the things wrong with us.

We thought he brought it on himself,
   that God was punishing him for his own failures.

But it was our sins that did that to him,
   that ripped and tore and crushed him—our sins!

He took the punishment, and that made us whole.
   Through his bruises we get healed.

We're all like sheep who've wandered off and gotten lost.
   We've all done our own thing, gone our own way.

And God has piled all our sins, everything we've done wrong,
   on him, on him. 

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Song : Healer
Verse1
You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease
I trust in You
I trust in You

Chorus
I believe You're my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my Portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need


Bridge
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands